Life Love and Power

Life takes you places and you notice and remember things that hurt or changed you the most. The normal routine is neglected. The weirdness of life make you what you are the way you deal with change is what shapes you as a person.
Most recently I have realized that when you face pain and show humility is when you free yourself from the inside.
When you accept your reality and gulp down the absence of the love you start loving yourself.
When you stop putting love on the pedestal and see all as one and not one as all you start loving yourself.
I feel god. And only because Im in love with myself.
Will not. Not now not ever love one single person more than everyone.
Its blasphemy cause you give a single person so much power by giving them your love. And power makes people go mad, go insane.
Not all have the knowledge to handle power or love so think and then don't love.
Respect and that makes a person better human.

afraid.

long time dint write..

feelings and emotions have taken a back step..

still havin those lil dreams in daylight n goin back in time but numb to the core..

things are too perfect .. too right

little changes cause pain.. huge changes will break hearts..

afraid to go out of line.. monotony has taken over.

afraid to feel truely.

afraid to go a step beyond.

afraid.

language .. a barrier

alll day long i sit in front of the big box which flashes different colours at me.. some black spots called letters also come onto a plane called the screen. a wierd sound i can hear from the people sittin around me. i think they talk in some code language... i wish i cud decipher it. its irritating wen everyone makes some weird noises at u n u can make no head or tail of it. its been two months now n i still cant get a single noise uncoded... n its all bcuz of the pople around me. they refuse to speak in any language that i understand.... if somebody keeps makin noises at u r u ever goin to understand wat it signifies till they translate it for u ??? they have to do that for u to understand... rite?
but NO they shall not do that .the people above me in the ranks shl not speak to me directly... why ???? because i cant make noises like them its degrading for them to talk in a language that the whole country understands... eventhough they noe it.
but they r the ones who wud start ratlling off in english wen they see some white skin.. but an indian has to noe their dumb morse codes.
they r still doin it to me ,i am goin mad, everyday.i dont talk to ne1 in the offuice sittin here .. a dumb employee ..little by little i shall forget my language n stop talkin forever...
watin to get put of this place another 40 minutes to go n i will get freedom will be able to talk in some languge that i can understand n not a sign languge...

kerela n life

things have changed over centuries....
wen i walked on the moist brick outside my office without chappals on i felt like i went back in time. we have changed we dont have sensations n moments. the feel of the breeze on ur tummy the feel of pebbles , walking on a road on a hot summer day naked foot...
we have stopped feeling. stop urself from doing nethin n FEEL everting around u gives u a sensation. feel like goin into the wild naked feelin the grass the trees the snakes n the bees the sound the light waking up all the senses in my body becomin a human ...
away fom these plastic life away from the rubber soles .... to become a ..... whole